Still with the bad news, and bad days

I really wanted to post something funny realted to last week end…but …there wasn´t no material enough for it!
Bad news from Barcelona…Esther is back to drink…she is lost again and so depressed, his father so rude, we had some telephonic words….
Jessica is having problems with her kidneys…I cross my fingers…she has a typr of esclerosys, the Bourneville desease….it´s like a cross over us for the whole life!
Pablo is dying, he can´t see or talk already, they took him from the hospital to home for die…isn´t sad?
My friend Naara, her daughter, is my best friend…and I´m feeling so sad…

About myself…I have no words…the pain is killing me, the stress made me crazy, my cat doesn´t leave me sleep for 3 or 4 hours….and my buddy…welll, I think the things right now are more close to a rupture than a another thing….
I need calm, peace, don´t be preasured, don´t be controlled, need sleep, need rest, need caring.
Need someone by my side who share my problems, and don´t insult me or my daughters….or treate me like a nothing….saying I LOVE YOU is not enough!!!
I can´t live this way…..I wish I could find a hole to hide!

There´s no more….I´m afraid!